The photo above was taken when my friend gave birth to
her firstborn. Too bad we forgot to take pictures of her and her baby boy;
instead we took pictures right after we left the hospital.
When I first learned about her pregnancy sometime last
year, I admit I was hit by a pang of loneliness and panic. I was thinking that
every body is now growing--stepping into the ladder of adulthood, while I’m
being left alone.
As an introvert, it was almost always difficult for me to
make new friends. Actually I don’t need that much. I was and still am contended
with the circle of people I’m revolving around now, only that it’s getting
smaller and smaller as the days grow.
After college or every body started moving into their own
paths and all you are left with are memories of your once dear friends, now
turned strangers. I have a lot of that; only to a few I really shed a hint of
sadness and regrets.
I missed my college buddy, a couple of high school friends,
and another one from college. They were among the trusted people I have in this
world, but at one point, I gradually accepted that they cannot be my friends
forever, at a time in the future, those dear to me would soon lose their
identities I had once etched in my mind.
Still, I’m not out of people to love. A friend once told me
that if you want to make the friendship last, you must always put some efforts
for you to maintain the communication and relationship.
